So I have all these ideas for like three different cool posts but unfortunately, even though the spirit is very willing, the flesh is weak.
I have been spiking numbers higher than 10 on the pain scale for the last handful of days, so all of my time has been taken up with managing the pain, as well as all of the mental and emotional stuff that comes up when your whole world has shrunk down to, “OK, what’s going on in my body right now?, and “How can I make myself feel a little more comfortable?”
Thankfully I have very effective pain meds, a comfy bathtub, and tons of great support, with people who check in with me many times a day to see where I am and what, if anything, they need to do.
Also, The Most Awesome Husband In The Entire World got me an iTouch for Christmas, and so now I pretty much have my own portable, hand-held, all-inclusive personal entertainment center with me at all times.
I said when I converted this site over to Cranky Fibro Girl that I would be writing about (in addition to tons of other things) my whole life experience when it comes to living every day with a chronic illness and chronic pain. And so this is a part of it, unfortunately. Days where the whole world shrinks down to, “What can I do in this minute to help myself feel a little more comfortable?” Not “better”. “More comfortable.” Because from this place, better is as far away from where I am as the moon is from the earth. And just about as impossible to get to right now.
So if anyone feels inspired, I would really like to request some gentle healing vibes/energy/prayers/thoughts sent my way. No specific outcome needed-just support and love and relief.